Insight from dream last year 2.14.2022:
"You cannot make a defect on purpose. It will be traced back to its manufacturing machine."
who are you really?
it's not your character and story that you have created out there. it's not you: status, how many followers or friends you have, how busy you are, clothes, the labels you wear, your physique, make-up, wealth, certifications and diplomas, titles, abbreviations after your name, size of your home, the kind of car you drive, the size of your yard, it's not even your personality. there have been what seemed to be "nicest" people out there who turned out to be the most deceptive and disingenuous of them all. if you notice, all of those things above have been bought or on some level manipulated to be.
when you strip all those things away, who are you? when you remove all that has been manipulated to "become", who are you really?
i am very sensitive to SOUND more so now than ever.. for some reason i can easily hear what harmonizes to one another. i don't sit down with pen and paper and write notes (although) i can read music. i can tell immediately what is cohesive, what is uplifting. i have to record my first attempts at songwriting for usually it is the best attempt. trust your first instinct. if i watch a program on tv with background soundtrack and hear dissonance, i have to mute the sound. it is grating to my ears and state of mind. though i write music myself i don't listen very much to it in general. mostly classical music that i practice on my own time. it is as if each composition is a new formation, formulation, a new recipe, a new experiment, a new drawing, art piece. a flash of inspiring light. meticulous execution. sound is powerful.
atoms in motion: sound in mute mode
in between sleep state...
seeing the vibration of atoms clearly
they are green"ish" in color
connected to one another
with vibrating lines
visual to the eye
in a certain body and mind state
in constant movement
stairwells to different level platforms
so many NPCs on street level
platforms to time travel
in dream state
2017 to 2010
if you are not one that notices
if you feel and take notice
I have been listening to a lot of Chopin's Nocturnes. I have to feel the pieces, see the colors and the moods. When composing or writing melody lines does it make you feel something? Or is it a carbon copy of the next guy's piece? Or is it something like you have already done? Have you evolved creatively?
There is nothing wrong per se with doing what you know. However, thinking that you will grow and mature from doing the same thing in the same way will for sure not allow you to expand. You have not taken a risk. If all you have done is dive into large puddles of mud for the sake of being amongst your environment how would you then decipher that you have a spring of water right behind you that is clear blue and effervescent?
It cannot be taught. It can only be learned through experience and facing the moments.
Tchaikovsky's "Sweet Dream"
Beautiful melodic lines. Glorious. Is it melancholy or is it playfully happy? Perhaps a bit of both.
it may not be the perfect shade
it may not be the way you see it
it may not be the style you like
it may not be the choice you'd make
it may not be your timing
you may not see a thing's at stake
but it's me
yes, my life
that's the beauty of freedom
The more freedom gets taken from you
the more you want it back
the more you want more of it
the more you want to taste it
the more you see how much of it you've lost
it makes sense why the mountains stand in peace
or why the huge tree over on the hill sits on its own
tranquil as can be
it makes sense
it all makes sense to me
so let me be
Susana Baca glorious. The musicians backing her are sweet in the pocket. Beautiful. I feel tingles.
There is only one film that in my opinion encapsulates the beauty of life in all stages. That is Cinema Paradiso. The soundtrack is splendid. Music that touches the heart beyond measure. Love, Loss, Reconcile. Truly a glorious masterpiece.